City of Sin CR Chart
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imaginationswoes| ❦ love ❤ attraction ✿ friend |
❡ respect ❢ aquainted ✔ Family |
✠ tolerable ✯ enemy of war ¿ uncertain |
⟲ complicated ❚ protective ☈ returned |
✹ hatred ✾ dangerous ➷ untrustworthy |
❇ irritating ❱ avoidance ✘ admires |
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DROPPED:
Matthew Divigny ❤
Glinda the Good
Dorian Pavus
Gabriel Gray
Peter Petrelli
Ezekiel
Gaila
Emma Frost
Quinten Quire ❤❤❤
Draco Malfoy ❤
David Posner
Blaine Anderson
Fenris
Remy Lebeau
Harry Potter
Ronan Lynch ❤
Lestat De Lioncourt ❤❤
Cyril Lawellan
SERA
Coil
Orpheus
Adam Parrish
Luke Skywalker
Rene D'Aramis
Narcissa Black
Elizabeth
Lavernius Tucker
Agent Washington
RHYS
Date: 2016-12-22 06:39 pm (UTC)❦❤✿✿✿✔❚❚❡✘
It's hard to remember that far back. Rhys was one of the first people to talk to me when I arrived. He was charming and sweet and didn't mind me being very awkward. A lot of stuff happened in the city around then. I only learned about it recently but Rhys disappeared and when he came back he was hurt. I never asked him the specifics. At the time, I couldn't relate. Now, thinking back on it, I recognize that look in his eyes. The pain. I don't think I'll ever ask him about it but I want to be there for him.
Rhys's is like... my big brother and one of my best friends. I haven't told him everything. I don't want him to think poorly of me and I'm scared. I keep losing the people that I'm close too but what if it's always like this?
After Matt left, Rhys was one of the two new owners of the Le Rideau Rouge. He looked after me and I found a family there. I don't know if that would have happened without Rhys. We spoken in passing a lot and I looked after Rosie, his dog, when the other's at the Le Rideau Rouge couldn't. Rhys is always looking after me.
He can do magic. It's different from me and I don't completely understand it but he helped me with my focus. I now don't hurt people on accident though having a weird time jump at home helped with that too. Even so, I don't know what I would have done without him. I've never had an older brother before.
He has a pet crow and lives in a very cool house.
I hope Rhys is always here for me and I hope that I can always be there for him too. I don't care what happens in the future. I'm always going to be there for him.
Maybe one day I'll have the strength to tell him everything.
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
ERIK LEHNSHERR
Date: 2017-01-04 05:34 pm (UTC)❡✿✿✠❇✘✘
I don't know how things got so complicated... maybe that's a lie. I know the exact moment. All the way down to the second.
Devi and I were sitting in a strip club watching Amber (or Karama because that's what Amber is called there) and talking. Girl talk. I met Devi's gaze and for the second time in my life I questioned everything I ever knew about myself. I thought about Erik a half second after that. I thought about Erik when we walked to a dark corner, I thought about Erik when I inhaled my first line of Lust. I didn't think it'd go that far and then I couldn't think of anything. I only felt.
It's okay if Erik never trusts me again. It's okay if he hates me. I probably deserve it but that won't stop me from being there if he ever needs me. Erik taught me when I first came into the city. He was a rough teacher (not as bad as Luther) but rough. I burned my hand a lot trying to focus enough to make a damn coffee cup. I still have a small scar on my thumb from it but I don't think anyone ever notices.
Erik is someone I look up too. He's stubborn and short sighted at times but his heart is always in the right place. Maybe that makes it worse? He was the chief of the police for awhile and one of the magistrates. I spotted him when all that was over and... well, I didn't know what had happened, I just wanted to get him home. Devi filled me in later. Erik's been through so much... I think he deserves a little bit of happiness. Which, I guess I didn't help with at all.
I hate it when people say bad things about Erik. He might have done bad things in the past but people can change, we all deserve a chance to change.
I'm not sure what else to say. I don't feel like I know Erik anymore, I'm not sure I ever knew him. He was always a little distant and I'm fairly sure I burned that bridge. I can't even act normally around him. I feel awful about all of this. I wish I was strong enough to tell him what was on my mind, to tell him the truth, but I don't think he'd listen. After talking to Peter, I realize that Erik doesn't know me either. Maybe we were never friends. Can it go one way? I don't know but I'll always be his friend and try to do what I hope is right...
Even if everyone hates me.
I hate that I'm keeping things from him but... it's really between him and Devi. It's probably not right. I mean, I had a part but I think I was a tool more than a person. I'm pretty sure that anyone could have taken my place. Maybe not after that but at first. After all, I wasn't the only one, just the one that Erik found out about. It's a sobering thought. But I'll take Erik's anger so someone else doesn't have too. I have the power to keep myself safe. I just hope it doesn't actually come to that... I never want to fight Erik.
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
DEVI D
Date: 2017-03-11 12:42 am (UTC)❦✔✿✿❡❚❚✘
I love Devi. Not in the traditional way, not even in a simple way but I love her so much. God I messed everything up. I don't even know where to start, maybe at the beginning? It feels like forever ago.
I was a different person then.
I first met Devi at Christmas. It was two weeks after I had arrived here and I had no idea what to do. I was nineteen, a runaway, and somehow teleported to a strange city. So. I made Christmas cookies and decided to hand them out to all of the chosen. It wasn't to hard to find everyone, luckily Devi found me on the streets staring at my map with the worlds worst doodles on it. I gave her cookies and she helped me not get lost. That, I guess, was the start of everything.
We talked on and off after that but honestly, Devi was too cool for me. I helped her plan her wedding, though I wasn't there when it happened. I'm not sure if Erik and Devi got tired of planning and just went to the court house? I'm not sure.
She did help me when I was turned into a fox. That's a weird story.
Anyway. Our relationship was as passing friends, pleasant but not close. She was part of the first (or second) raid on the tower. I ran into her when she couldn't speak and used my powers to make little paint figures. She showed me her art studio once though I've only been there a few times since. I had Devi on a bit of a pedestal but as far as I'm concerned she deserves it because she's amazing.
Things changed after I returned home. It was for nearly a year, maybe it was over a year? Over a year. So much happened and living in a warded underground bunker has a way of making it easy to lose track of time. And only a week pasted in the city but I aged.
Devi found me on the street. I was bleeding after the wolf attack and would have probably bled out if she hadn't found me. I didn't tell her everything I went through in that time but I told her bits and pieces of my training and how I ended up bleeding on the sidewalk in the first place. It felt like we were closer then and for the first time, it felt like we were really friends.
It was from that point on that Devi and I really clicked. I think it helped that I could legally drink. We danced at Ohm and found that we had a lot in common. She even hosted a costume party there and I think that's where Eliot's birthday was too. I loved the parties there. Ohm was honestly one of my favorite places in the city. I have so many memories there, with Devi and Stiles too. It's important to me and it's kind of a shame I feel so awkward there now. It had felt like I found a home, a place to be myself. I'm not sure I can be myself anywhere I am but I'm kind of made peace with that now. It's my fate. I'm the Creator. I can't just be Airy anymore.
Devi was there when a lot of people when missing too; Draco, Quentin... later it was Adam and Ronen and Stiles. She was the person I always seemed to go to when that happened. Looking back at it now... I guess I've relied on her for a long time without even realizing it.
We were acquaintances, then friends, then confidants and after all that, we were teammates. Devi and I had some adventures through the sewer. She taught me a lot about this place, the magistrates and the demons. We worked to stop them and fight back. Pieces of Erik's grand plan. It was a really stressful time but I was strong. Devi helped me be strong. She believed in me and honestly, I don't think anyone else did. Some people did but everyone wanted to protect me first. Devi was the one who really treated me like I was worth something, like I could help.
It meant a lot to me.
Maybe that's why this all happened. The signs were there and I just never noticed it.
The plan failed and the city froze. I fell into a spiral. Drugs, sex, anything to let me forget how helpless I felt. I couldn't take it. I was alone, unloved and I kept everything inside. I couldn't let it out. I don't know why. Writing this now, it almost sounds like an excuse but I want to get it all out. I want to pour out my feelings just so I'm not keeping them inside anymore. If I don't. I'm not sure I'll survive it. The Airy I had thought I'd given up on would be gone and I can't let that happen.
Devi and I, we met on the street one night. She was going to a strip club and I ended up going with her. I tried my first line of Lust that night. It wasn't like coke or anything else I'd tried before and it hit me a lot harder than I expected. I called out of work and Devi and I spent the night together. I'm not writing out specifics. It's between me and Devi but... I don't know.
I've never looked at another woman like that before. It wasn't okay and I feel... guilty. I can't explain why but how I feel is such an integral part of me that it feels wrong. I'm supposed to be God's messenger or something. I don't know. I stopped trying to translate the book but- was I made to feel this or did I mess up somehow? I'm so confused. Everyone says that it's alright but I don't know.
It only feels alright when Devi is around.
Things got more complicated for awhile. Devi lost her memories and I was stuck wrestling with this all alone. I talked to Cassidy some, found out that he'd slept with Devi too. I guess it helped but it also hurt, a little. I avoided Erik. I didn't know what to tell him and when Devi remembered again, we talked.
All of my fears, my worries and that pressing guilt vanished. Everything was okay when we were together and we decided to keep being together. I told her things I hadn't told anyone. How I was feeling and how hard it was. I trusted her.
Then something happened. I guess it was the city playing its stupid fucking tricks again. But I felt love. I felt true love and that person loved me. It wasn't real but it was so close to the real thing that I couldn't tell the difference. After that, I remember crying a lot. I was always alone, I made sure I was alone and I cried for everything I had lost along the way.
I decided I wanted to turn things around and that meant talking to Devi. I didn't want to stop being close, we could draw a line somewhere and talk it out but I didn't want to sleep with her anymore. I mean, I wanted too but I also wanted to find someone who loved me the way that Erik loves her. It isn't fair that I'm not allowed to have someone love me like that and I didn't think I could find it while having a secret relationship with Devi. Whoever I found, I'd tell them everything and I didn't think they'd want me to sleep with her anymore.
Devi, didn't take it well. I guess she hates me now. I don't know what to do or who to turn too. I gave up the closest thing to love I found and I'm alone again. Maybe not completely alone but it's not the same.
I decided to give Devi space and I guess that's what I'll do now. I've told other's bits and pieces of the story but no one knows everything. I feel like I'd be betraying Devi if I told them everything. Now I just have to be strong and pray with all my heart that Devi still wants to be my friend.
That people come into our lives for a reason
ELIOT WAUGH
Date: 2017-03-11 12:51 am (UTC)✿❡¿¿✘✘✠
♫ Hope dangles on a string
Like slow-spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
DIANA ABEL
Date: 2017-03-11 01:29 am (UTC)❤✿✿❡✘✘
♫ If you got troubles, let 'em go
Let 'em soar so high, high into the sky
Just like a red balloon
KATE CORDELLO
Date: 2017-03-11 01:37 am (UTC)✿✿❢❢¿✘
♫ You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
CHARLOTTE LOWELL
Date: 2017-03-11 01:42 am (UTC)✿✿❡❢✘
♫ Fuelin' your addiction with this thick black lava
We can do up an espresso, or the cappucino way
Sure to get your fix, venti or grande
WOLF
Date: 2017-04-09 07:11 pm (UTC)✿✿¿✠✘✘✾
♫ I'll be there when your heart stops beating
I'll be there when your last breath's taken away
In the dark, when there's no one listening
In the times when we both get carried away
WANDA MAXIMOFF
Date: 2017-04-09 07:16 pm (UTC)✿✿❚❚☈⟲✘
♫ 'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
JACK HARKNESS
Date: 2017-05-14 05:13 pm (UTC)❤❤❢❢¿
♫ It's just another war
Just another family torn
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live;
CLINT BARTON
Date: 2017-06-09 01:12 pm (UTC)❡❢❢✿¿
♫ One day my father—he told me,
"Son, don't let it slip away"
He took me in his arms, I heard him say,
"When you get older
Your wild life will live for younger days
Think of me if ever you're afraid."
ACE
Date: 2017-08-08 03:17 pm (UTC)❤✿¿❡✘
♫ When you whisper, I'm alright
But I see through your white lies
But these walls don’t talk
And if they could, they’d say
AITHNE
Date: 2017-11-21 02:51 pm (UTC)❢❢¿¿❱⟲
♫ Where we could be giants
Bigger than the walls that hide us
Breaking all the laws of science
Looking at a sea of diamonds
THE DOCTOR (HANDY)
Date: 2017-11-21 02:53 pm (UTC)✿❢❡❡¿¿✘
♫ Show the world you've got that fire
Feel the rhythm getting louder
Show the room what you can do
STEVE ROGERS
Date: 2017-11-21 02:55 pm (UTC)❤✿✿❡❢¿❚⟲☈
♫ It's just another war
Just another family torn
Just a step from the edge
Just another day in the world we live
SARAH APPELBAUM
Date: 2018-06-10 01:44 am (UTC)✿✿✿❢❢❚✘
♫ I've heard it said
that people come into our lives
for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
PETER MAXIMOFF
Date: 2018-06-10 01:46 am (UTC)✿❢❢¿¿
♫ You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
CHARLES XAVIER
Date: 2018-06-10 02:02 am (UTC)❡❡❢❢¿¿
♫ So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
Notes/things to change...
Date: 2019-08-18 04:17 pm (UTC)Update: Everyone…
Additions: Jacob Frye (Written as 'J' in her diary), Herbert West, Margaret 'Maggie' Finnegan, Lucifer Morningstar, Matt Murdock, Connor, Angel, Jack, Proinsias Cassidy, Tulip O'Hare, Thea Queen, Jack Kline, Thor Odinson, Clark Kent
Dropped Additions: Edward Kenway, Claire Temple, Genn Graymane, Himmy Darmody, Prompto, Mazikeen, Kurt Wagner, Hawke, Jubilee, Haytham Kenway, Desidera Jones, Jax Teller? (Check taken and dropped posts) – Create a top level for Drops. List is getting to be too long. Richard Gansey III? Noah Czerny?
Notes: CR with James Norrington, Tony Stark, Charles Smith have been removed from game canon.