City of Sin CR Chart

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❦ love ❤ attraction ✿ friend

❡ respect ❢ aquainted ✔ Family

✠ tolerable ✯ enemy of war ¿ uncertain

⟲ complicated ❚ protective ☈ returned

✹ hatred ✾ dangerous ➷ untrustworthy

❇ irritating ❱ avoidance ✘ admires

[ Guide - stolen from roadrunnermuses ]

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Matthew Divigny ❤
Glinda the Good
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Peter Petrelli
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Gaila
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Emma Frost
Steve Rogers
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Draco Malfoy ❤
David Posner
Blaine Anderson
Fenris
Remy Lebeau
Harry Potter
Ronan Lynch ❤
Lestat De Lioncourt ❤❤
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SERA
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Adam Parrish
Luke Skywalker
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Narcissa Black
Elizabeth
Lavernius Tucker
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ERIK LEHNSHERR

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❡✿✿✠❇✘✘

I don't know how things got so complicated... maybe that's a lie. I know the exact moment. All the way down to the second.

Devi and I were sitting in a strip club watching Amber (or Karama because that's what Amber is called there) and talking. Girl talk. I met Devi's gaze and for the second time in my life I questioned everything I ever knew about myself. I thought about Erik a half second after that. I thought about Erik when we walked to a dark corner, I thought about Erik when I inhaled my first line of Lust. I didn't think it'd go that far and then I couldn't think of anything. I only felt.

It's okay if Erik never trusts me again. It's okay if he hates me. I probably deserve it but that won't stop me from being there if he ever needs me. Erik taught me when I first came into the city. He was a rough teacher (not as bad as Luther) but rough. I burned my hand a lot trying to focus enough to make a damn coffee cup. I still have a small scar on my thumb from it but I don't think anyone ever notices.

Erik is someone I look up too. He's stubborn and short sighted at times but his heart is always in the right place. Maybe that makes it worse? He was the chief of the police for awhile and one of the magistrates. I spotted him when all that was over and... well, I didn't know what had happened, I just wanted to get him home. Devi filled me in later. Erik's been through so much... I think he deserves a little bit of happiness. Which, I guess I didn't help with at all.

I hate it when people say bad things about Erik. He might have done bad things in the past but people can change, we all deserve a chance to change.

I'm not sure what else to say. I don't feel like I know Erik anymore, I'm not sure I ever knew him. He was always a little distant and I'm fairly sure I burned that bridge. I can't even act normally around him. I feel awful about all of this. I wish I was strong enough to tell him what was on my mind, to tell him the truth, but I don't think he'd listen. After talking to Peter, I realize that Erik doesn't know me either. Maybe we were never friends. Can it go one way? I don't know but I'll always be his friend and try to do what I hope is right...

Even if everyone hates me.

I hate that I'm keeping things from him but... it's really between him and Devi. It's probably not right. I mean, I had a part but I think I was a tool more than a person. I'm pretty sure that anyone could have taken my place. Maybe not after that but at first. After all, I wasn't the only one, just the one that Erik found out about. It's a sobering thought. But I'll take Erik's anger so someone else doesn't have too. I have the power to keep myself safe. I just hope it doesn't actually come to that... I never want to fight Erik.

♫ Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie