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Airy Miller: Dear phone, this is super lame but I have no where else private to write. ANYWAY, I met two guys today. We'll call them T and N. I know that's stupid but talking to myself via text isn't much better. Airy Miller: Dear phone, this is super lame but I have no where else private to write. ANYWAY, I met two guys today. We'll call them T and N. I know that's stupid but talking to myself via text isn't much better. Airy Miller: I don't know what I'm doing but I'm staying with them... Airy Miller: I don't know what I'm doing but I'm staying with them... Airy Miller: T is nice and he answers all my stupid questions but he's only awake at night. Airy Miller: T is nice and he answers all my stupid questions but he's only awake at night. Airy Miller: N... is really confusing me. It's a shame guys like that don't fall for girls like me. Airy Miller: N... is really confusing me. It's a shame guys like that don't fall for girls like me. Airy Miller: This is stupid I'm going to stop now. More so since T let me on his phone plan so I have the internet again. Airy Miller: This is stupid I'm going to stop now. More so since T let me on his phone plan so I have the internet again.

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[stairsbro]

[ he pushes the straw in the juice around in circles with his finger. he has to be stronger than this. he can't protect them if he breaks. he thought he was past this - stop needing to fight and just turn into a pile of mush. stop seeing people hurt. time travel is fucking useless this time. ]

[ No. It's not okay. He's not okay. ] Mhm. I'm in one piece.

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[Airy's brow furrows and her arms hug Dave a little tighter. She is determined not to cry but she still feels tears gather in the corner of her eyes.]

I'm sorry Dave, I'm so sorry. I know you aren't okay. I really want to help. I do but I don't think I can. I don't want you or anyone to hurt like that...

[She has no idea what he must be feeling now.]

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[stairsbro]

[ fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck --
he balls the hand not around the juice up. keep together. keep together. ]

I'm okay. It's fine. [ insistent. dismissive. calm casual tone he's forcing out for her. that's still quieter than the norm, but still fits with the usual quick mutters. he'd pull back but he doesn't want her to let go ] I'll get over it. Whatever. It's not the first time I've died. It's not a big deal. Shake it off, T-Swift style. We should worry more about Jefferson. I agree with not wanting to see anyone hurt. Fuck that.

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Just because it's happened before doesn't mean it's easier.

[She continues to pull him tighter against her side. Airy really doesn't want to let go of him and has no intention too for the foreseeable future.]

It's okay to not be okay Dave. It's okay to lean on me.

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[stairsbro]

I - ...

[ he doesn't know what to say to that. nobody has told him that before. he's usually the one that calls bullshit on the situations. he closes his mouth. keeps it shut tight for a long moment. just staying like that with airy squeezing him against her.

but that's too quiet for him. and he's not going to let himself break down in front of her. ]

What's in the bag?

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[imaginationswoes]

[She isn't expecting Dave to say anything. She just wants him to believe her and to depend on her. Just like she depends on him and her friends.

When he asks about the bag her head pops up to look at it though her arms remain wrapped around him.]

Oh. Some snacks and Die Hard because for some reason I thought that it would cheer you up.

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[stairsbro]

Die Hard and snacks. [ he repeats with a sort of distance in his voice. that's such an amusing way to try and cheer him up. that's probably the perfect way to cheer john up, actually.

he can't believe that asshole broke john's gift.

he slowly wiggles his away out of her arms and slides off the couch, going through the bag to retrieve the movie. he puts it on then sits back down next to her.

it takes about two seconds for him to tip to the side and put his head back on her. ]

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[Airy lets him go when it's apparent that he's trying to move away. She watches him curiously and silently hopes that the movie is alright. She doesn't know what his comfort movies might be but she remembers her father and brother both really liking Die Hard.

When he returns to the couch she wraps her arms around him again and settles in to watch the movie.]

What is your favorite movie Dave? [Her voice is soft as if speaking above a whisper might break something.]

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[stairsbro]

[ he's still holding the juice without drinking it. he sinks against her. ]

I like Ben Stiller movies.

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[imaginationswoes]

So... like Zoolander?

[She really likes that movie to but hadn't thought of it. Next time she'll pick that up.

Her arm tightens around Dave and she shifts and rests move against the couch. She hasn't always been a cuddler but Airy is slowly turning into one. She keeps her head resting lightly on Dave's as the movie begins.]

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[stairsbro]

Yeah. Zoolander is amazing. Night at the Museum, Starsky and Hutch... If it's got Owen Wilson in it, then it's officially a Stiller movie instead of a movie simply staring Stiller.

[ at one point the juice gets put down so he can wrap his arms around her and cling. dave is, somewhat secretly, a huge cuddler. rare to initiate it but once someone gives him the go that it's okay and he trusts them enough, it happens. especially if he's upset. he's hard to pull off, like a needy koala.

he just really needs/likes hugs. ]

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I loved Night at the Museum but I never got to see the second one.

[She laughs softly, holding tightly onto Dave.]

Next time I'll get those and maybe we can have a Night at the Museum Marathon or a moves-I-can-find-with-Ben-Stiller-in-them Marathon.

[Airy ends up leaning back against the side of the couch and stretching out her legs. If they are going to cuddle through the movie she's getting comfortable.]

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[stairsbro]

[ he tilts his head up to look at her, gaping ]

... Marathon?

[ he puts his head back down on her, muttering to himself now. quiet little mutters but mutters all the same. he's feeling... somewhat better? or pretending to, anyway. ] I can't believe the world ended before the sequel hit theaters. And then there was more. This is devastating. I've missed his continued career. Those glasses were Ben Stiller's, you know. Authentic. They touched his face then my face. Do you know how long it took John to track them down for me? There was effort in there. They were gifted with love and friendship. They were too big for my face but I grew into them sort of and they stayed on my face despite having a jacked up super powered Jack punch me in the face with a glowing fist and a magic crowbar that literally breaks anything but not those, oh no...

[ nevermind. he's not feeling better. he's quietly and angrily rambling about those sunglasses to the point where he sounds like he's having a meltdown over them.

he's having a meltdown over a pair of sunglasses ]

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[Airy can tell that he's upset. She hugs him as close as she can though she realizes there is a limit to how tightly she can cling against him.]

There are three now... I think. We can watch them all.

[She nuzzles her face against the top of his head wishing she could promise more than just movies.]

I'm sorry Dave.

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[stairsbro]

[ deep breath. shit. he really needs to keep it together here for airy's sake. She said it was okay to not be okay but he thinks it is definitely not okay to be so not okay that he's two steps away from screaming about cheap plastic. she doesn't need his shit and she definitely doesn't need to feel guilty that there's nothing she can do about how much he has ]


Three whole movies in a museum with Ben Stiller. [ happy thoughts happy thoughts everything is fine. shit how does John manage to suppress all his crap and smile like an asshole despite losing his dad and dealing with shit? not as MUCH shit as Dave but man he's jealous of that strong denial of negative feelings and massive self-oppression of trauma. (That's probably not healthy. SHIT. IS JOHN OKAY?) ]

I need these movies yesterday.

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[Airy's torso shakes as she laughs softly. She can tell that dave is trying and she won't let that effort go to waste. She's hugging him as tightly as humanly possible though and that still isn't letting up.]

I'll buy them for you. Do you want them right now or would you rather have hugs?

[She doesn't want to leave him alone if he isn't ready to be alone. Though that is a topic that'll eventually come up.]

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[stairsbro]

[ he makes a little sound - like a sigh. a little noise that she's hugging tighter. ]

You're kind of suffocating me but hugs? We're already- [ he gestures. they're watching die hard. or half-watching? he honestly has no idea what is happening in this movie. bruce willis is doing a thing. probably some macho hero bullshit. ]

I don't care when those movies happen as long as they happen. [ he's got time. ha ha ha... ]

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[Airy releases her grip a little bit allowing Dave to breath.]

Okay, then how about after I get back?

[That is probably the worst segway ever and now Airy doesn't know what to say next. She shifts awkwardly which Dave will probably notice since they're still cuddling.]

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[stairsbro]

[ she releases the grip and he ... worms his way closer. that's entirely possible. he's completely curled up at her side. which just makes the awkward shifting all the more apparent. ]

You're leaving?

[ and he shifts away. he knew this was coming. she was going to those docks ]

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[Her heart drops when he shifts away.]

I was going to go to the dream docks.

[It sounds really lame when she admits it like that.]

But I won't if you need me here! I just... I want to be able to protect people and remember others.

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[stairsbro]

[ a week without airy. Jefferson isn't back yet. could be a week without him. he'll be alone. no. kirino is still around. he can stick with her. what if she gets sick of him? that's probably something she'll have to put up with. ]

I - [ airy knows she's going off to remember being tortured. what if it's as bad or worse than -
poker face. ]

It's fine. I mean, I don't want to say I don't need you because that's such a fucking jackass thing to say but I don't. I can handle it. I don't want to hold you back here. I'm fine. You do what you need to.

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[Airy watches him.]

Are you sure? [She looks horribly conflicted. Airy doesn't really know what she wants to do after seeing that video but at the same time she wants to know. Is what she'd been through like that? Will she really be okay? She doesn't know.

But she has hope and she has people here she's coming back too.]

I mean, we'll have a marathon when I get back... with Jefferson too. All of us. [In the weird little family they've created.]

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[stairsbro]

[ Don't go. ] If you're sure, I'm sure. I'll be okay. I want you to be okay.

[ she might not be. but she'll know. and she's not okay now not knowing. ]

Right. Real long marathon. We'll build a fucking fort for it.

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[imaginationswoes]

Yeah. I like forts.

[Airy leans forward and hugs Dave again.]

If you're really really sure Dave. I wanted to know if you could keep Nathan company. I don't think he knows as many people and I don't want to leave him alone either. [That way Dave won't be alone.]

Can you do that?

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[stairsbro]

[ hugs. he's back to hugging. it's basically a reflex that he hugs back. buries his face in her shoulder so his words come out muffled ]

You want me to babysit Nathan? I don't know if he likes me enough to have me staring at him.