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Airy Miller: Dear phone, this is super lame but I have no where else private to write. ANYWAY, I met two guys today. We'll call them T and N. I know that's stupid but talking to myself via text isn't much better. Airy Miller: Dear phone, this is super lame but I have no where else private to write. ANYWAY, I met two guys today. We'll call them T and N. I know that's stupid but talking to myself via text isn't much better. Airy Miller: I don't know what I'm doing but I'm staying with them... Airy Miller: I don't know what I'm doing but I'm staying with them... Airy Miller: T is nice and he answers all my stupid questions but he's only awake at night. Airy Miller: T is nice and he answers all my stupid questions but he's only awake at night. Airy Miller: N... is really confusing me. It's a shame guys like that don't fall for girls like me. Airy Miller: N... is really confusing me. It's a shame guys like that don't fall for girls like me. Airy Miller: This is stupid I'm going to stop now. More so since T let me on his phone plan so I have the internet again. Airy Miller: This is stupid I'm going to stop now. More so since T let me on his phone plan so I have the internet again. |
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End of July
Date: 2018-08-05 10:46 pm (UTC)“Yeah,” he echoed, believing her, but still a little stunned. “You’ve got this. Damn right, you’ve bloody got this. Bloody Christ, that was awesome.”
He was starting to smile again already. The fact that she wasn’t freaked out made it a lot easier.
“Now.” He lifted a hand, letting his voice go more casual and relaxed. “Can I ask, d’you know Airy Miller? Have you seen her lately? Cause I was down here waitin’ for Airy Miller, who’s a sweet little thing. And you, you’re some kind of professional dominatrix, I’m totally sure...”
End of July
Date: 2018-08-05 10:54 pm (UTC)"Well, I do have the outfit for it now. Maybe we can figure out what the other things down here do." She really didn't know.
Airy snorted and let herself fall back so she was staring up at the ceiling of the dungeon. "Rude." But she laughed. "I won't say I practiced but I did. Mostly saying any of that stuff without laughing but it's really hard not to laugh. Eve was trying to get my to say pussy but I couldn't do it. I giggle like I'm five."
Being in the heat of the moment helped but having a tiny bit of a script also helped. "Maybe I'm not as sweet as you thought?" She exhaled, resting her fingers on the leather corset while focusing on breathing.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 04:29 am (UTC)Idly, he pressed his tongue against the tip of one of his canines. Much duller than it was a minute ago. For a moment, he entertained a paranoid notion: she was acting so positive about the whole thing. Maybe she hadn't noticed the teeth.
...but if that was true, what had been holding him down at the end? That hadn't smelled like fairy interference. It certainly hadn't been his amazing talent for self-control.
He slid a hand over her leg, enjoying the feel of those stockings one more time. "Maybe not."
He wanted to be sure about what had stopped him. But asking felt like it would ruin the moment — this moment, he wanted to live in a bit longer.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 04:54 am (UTC)For some reason, that made perfect sense in Airy's mind. Not that she'd ever had a lot of girls friends. Her best friend growing up had been a guy though she had become friends with his girl friend... when he got one.
She rolled onto her side, making sure that Cassidy's palm stayed on her leg. It felt good there.
"And you're okay? I wasn't too whip crazy?" Because that had been a lot of fun. Airy knew how to use a whip but this was her first time to actually use one for something. She also knew that he'd nearly vamped out, which was usually a sign that Cassidy wasn't okay or maybe it meant something else?
Airy wasn't sure.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 02:40 pm (UTC)"Oh, no, the whip was all right." Nothing he couldn't handle. Likely he'd have some welts and bruises for a few days. That much didn't even seem worth the sip of blood it'd take to fix them.
He finally lifted himself off the floor a little: rolling onto his side and propping himself up on a forearm. His other hand stayed on her leg.
"Close to the end, there — it felt like somethin' was holdin' me down. Was that you?"
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 03:30 pm (UTC)She had no experience with this kind of stuff or the after care that might normally be required. "Good. I can go harder or softer, if you want to do this again."
A smile shaped her lips as he turned towards her though it falter a little at his question.
"Er, yeah. I felt your teeth, so I thought you might be losing control and we were so close that I figured I could just hold you down." It sounded pretty horrible when she said it out loud. "Sorry if that surprised you. I've been practicing that too, so you don't have to worry about losing control around me. I can stop you."
Which she thought was a good thing.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 04:28 pm (UTC)It still made something twist in his gut to think what would've happened if he'd slipped, if he'd hit her skin at just the wrong angle, or if she'd delayed a second longer. To think that it could happen again. Feeling the urge wasn't anything new, but normally — even in the throes of a high — he had enough of a grip on himself that the fangs didn't come out. He'd had a long time to practice fitting a leash to the howling beast in the back of his mind, stuffing it down in the dark where it belonged. Drowning it in other pleasures to keep it quiet.
He didn't like knowing that it had found a way out.
"No, I'm glad you did it. It's good that you can." So she had nothing to apologize for.
"I am gonna worry about it, though." She got that, right? Accidents could still happen. "I mean, I came real close to hurtin' us both, just there."
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 04:36 pm (UTC)Airy pushed herself up and turned so that she was laying next to Cassidy. She didn't care that they were in the middle of the dungeon floor or that it was still technically a public space, this was important.
"I know that you're going to worry but I want you to trust me Cass." Airy slowly ran her fingers along his hair line as an affectionate smile touched her lips. "I won't let you hurt me. I'll protect you, even from yourself, because I love all of you... even if I don't like all of you sometimes."
Not everyone was perfect and while Cassidy's dark side was more violent than most, it was a part of him. "I get that it's bad and it's definitely scary to think about but you're important to me. I'll keep us both safe for when you can't. You are worth it." Airy was going to drill Cassidy's self worth into his thick skull.
They could take turns protecting each other. He didn't have to take all the guilt and worry.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 06:59 pm (UTC)Love was funny.
And scary. And painful. And she wanted all of it; she wanted to give him all of it, the whole wonderful mess.
It was hard to believe he was worthy of it. To not think that he'd somehow managed to trick her into falling for him, and that any day now she was going to realize how much of a piece of shit he was. It wasn't pure self-loathing: he had more than enough past experience to expect that somewhere down the road.
But this — right now — this was really nice.
"You're amazin'," he said in a quiet voice, watching her with peaceful eyes while she stroked his hair. "Have I said that often enough?"
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 07:58 pm (UTC)She gently booped his nose while a fond little smile pulled across her lips. He really was cute, even if he didn't realize it.
"I won't complain if you say it more often." As long as she could tell him how amazing she thought he was and occasionally how stupid she thought he was. Love was funny. Airy didn't think it was something that could be explained but it was there and she didn't think it'd ever leave her alone.
"I think we need a bath, unless you want to keep rolling around on the dungeon floor."
Airy wasn't really opposed to just laying here, it was nice and it'd likely take her a few minutes longer to stand without wobbling.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 09:20 pm (UTC)"As dungeon floors go, I would call this one fairly hygienic, but. It is cold." Warmer since he'd been lying down on it, but every spot where his skin hadn't touched was still quite cool, and every time he shifted, he felt the cold all over again.
"I'll go and fetch me clothes, and the rest of the whiskey." He leaned up to kiss her one more time before he stood, letting out a small oof on the way up. Standing made him much more aware of how sore and tired he was — so he wasn't going to hurry in his errand. She could take all the time she needed for herself.
End of July
Date: 2018-08-06 09:27 pm (UTC)"So, bath? I'd offer a massage but I have a feel that it won't work so well with bruises." She didn't know about after care as a rule but after everything they had done, she wanted to pamper Cassidy and make him feel as good as she did.
"Or we can break into the coke under my bed."
End of July
Date: 2018-08-07 02:05 pm (UTC)The choice was a tough one, and it made him let out a hard breath before he decided.
“First one, then the other?” A bath, then the coke, to be specific. “I’ll probably need a fresh boost of energy come evenin’.”
/END!
Date: 2018-08-07 04:34 pm (UTC)"That sounds like we have a plan." A good plan too.
Cassidy will likely notice a boost in Airy's confidence in the coming days. She's always a little unsure and a little self-degrading, it was something they had in common, but the experience had definitely had a good long term effect on her.